Archives for June 2014

June 29, 2014

So, I like someone… And he likes me…

He makes me laugh in a way I haven’t laughed in a LONG time.
He likes my body the way it is right NOW.
He makes me blush with his compliments.
He enjoys holding me close. Just holding me. And talking.
He gives me hugs, massages my legs, scratches my back — and expects nothing back.
He kisses my nose and my forehead.
He has a past and knows about mine.
He’s not perfect. But neither am I.

Yes, I like someone. And he likes me. I have no idea what will happen. If we’ll be a couple or if it’s just a fling. All I know is that I enjoy spending time with him and I love talking to him and giggling with him at 3am. My roommates like him and they love how much of a smile he puts on my face. He’s not perfect. He has a past, which he has told me about and I am comfortable with the knowledge that he has shared. He’s shorter than I normally go for (but he’s still 5 inches taller than I am, so cares) and he’s a tiny little thing. He has the smallest waist ever. Yet he thinks my body is perfect the way it is. In fact, he LIKES my curves and chub. Says I’m made like a goddess. He doesn’t have a girlfriend. Or any crazy exes sticking around. Which is a huge plus.

Yet, with all that, I keep waiting for the other shoe to drop. And I need to get past that. It makes sense. With how badly ALL of my exes have treated me, and how badly I have been hurt, it’s natural to be wary. But this time I’m afraid that my suspicions or my distrust in men will hold me back. But all of that needs to be held in check. I’m over-analyzing yet again. Maybe we could become something. And parts of me hopes so.

But for now, I’m just going to revel in his attention, pay it back to him and just enjoy whatever happens. Because yes. I LIKE him.

June 28, 2014

Stacking The Shelves #3

Stacking The Shelves is a weekly meme hosted by Tynga’s Reviews that showcases the books you are adding to your shelves. These can include ebooks, physical books you have purchased or ones you have borrowed from friends or the library.

I am in love. With my local library. Seriously. I have a major library addiction lately. It’s getting a little out of hand actually. And I am perfectly fine with this :) Here are the books that I picked up this week.

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Of all the books, I am most excited to read The Winter People because I absolutely love Jennifer McMahon. If you have never read her books, I highly urge you to do so asap. You won’t regret it. They are deliciously creepy. What books are on your shelves this week? Leave me a comment and share away!

June 26, 2014

Take a Long Drive With Me, On California One

(Just a small warning, this post will be fairly picture heavy!)

Hello California View from the porch

On Friday, I left Seattle for a trip to California. My plane took me from SeaTac Airport to San Francisco International Airport. Once there, my lovely cousin Mira Joy picked me up and after a quick stop in San Mateo to pick up her boyfriend, we embarked on a three hour trip to Paso Robles, right smack dab in the middle of wine country, for my uncle’s 60th birthday party.

My uncle rented a house way up in the hills of Paso Robles for this little shindig, and talk about a gorgeous house. Three bedrooms, two amazing bathrooms, a huge wrap around porch, a gigantic kitchen, a dining area and a breakfast nook and two family rooms. It was perfect and fit all 12 of us easily.

My room for the weekend That. Bathtub.

I was lucky enough to get an actual bed to myself. And the bath tub in the bathroom I shared … Absolutely beautiful. I wished several times that I had brought some bubble bath with me. Would have been the perfect tub for a long soak. But there wasn’t really enough time for that anyway.

My cousin and her boyfriend Paso Sunset

Once we arrived on Friday, we unpacked, had dinner and relaxed. We enjoyed the sunset, took pictures and talked. I got to meet my cousin’s boyfriend for the first time (he’s a sweetie and they are adorable together) and I crashed early, around 10 since I had slept about 8 hours total in the span of two days. My uncle filled all of Saturday up with visits to several wineries before the dinner party for his 60th birthday started. The dinner party was pretty amazing. A four course dinner with appetizers before hand. And a wine to go with each course. Woo. Wine tipsy!

Courtyard at Grey Wolf Wineries Hottie chef at Starr Ranch

The appetizers were completely amazing. There was bacon wrapped shrimp, braised lamb on a rosemary sprig and pancetta wrapped arugula drizzled with white truffle oil. Then there was a mixed baby green salad with walnuts, apple slices, pomegranate seeds and dried cherries tossed in a vinaigrette. Next up was a choice of seafood paella or the most tender beef tenderloin I’ve ever had with potatoes au gratin, lavender polenta, amazingly crisp green beans and dinner rolls served with either rosemary or lavender infused butter. And finally a pie bar with the choice of either apple, peach or boysenberry pie or a slice of flourless chocolate cake. Everything was fantastic and I was lucky enough to talk with the hottie chef for a little bit. There wasn’t a better way to spend a summer solstice, that’s for sure.

The family back together California Selfie

Aside from it being the first time I’ve visited California since I left almost six years ago, it was also the first time I’d seen my cousins in that many years as well. It was good to see and talk to both of them. I also got to meet my cousin Jeremy’s wife for the first time and we got a family picture together as well. I look like ass, but I’m wearing a dress! That’s definitely a rare event. In fact it was the first time my uncle had seen me in a dress since I was about 12. He was very happy that I did it, even if I did change back into a tshirt and capris by 11 that night. Before we left Paso Robles, I took a California selfie (I had to, okay?!) and it is actually one of the best pictures I have ever taken of myself. I truly love it.

My time in California was amazing and I miss it. I miss my family. But I am actually glad to be back home. See, that’s the thing I’ve learned. After all the moves, all the running away, I discovered that I actually do have a home. I love it here in Washington. Even with all the bullshit that happened when I first got here. I have made a life here and I missed it while I was gone. California is awesome. It will always be a part of me. But it’s not home anymore.

But I certainly wouldn’t pass up some more trips to that beautiful state ;)